whooohoooo

I am getting ISSA certified .

So stoked that I can turn my passion for fitness + nutrition into a living soon !

truth to be told

 The more I think of you … the less I think of you

… the show goes on

The past couple of days have been a whirlwind of emotions, bringing back the painful memories from a couple of years back when my [former] best friend and I got into a big fight about her son.

 

So this time, it’s much worse, involving her son once more . I am heartbroken, cried for a couple of days, felt horribly misunderstood and tried reaching out to my close friends, or people I thought were close to me/ cared enough to realize that I needed help dealing.

Help, comfort and care came from unexpected places and people and of course my usual inner circle. Unfortunately, I did find out that people I thought way more of, lacked care. Painful, no doubt, but nothing I cannot handle right now, considering the bigger picture … losing one or two people I held close and I supported through their tough times sucks, but I know I am loved and I know what I have to offer …

I got through the initial crisis / rough couple of days and am back in fight mode and ready to handle / deal with whatever is coming … because I know this is only the beginning of a very long and painful situation and I am going to do everything in my power to give it a happy ending …

= back

I believe I have finally gotten a grip on my nearly 1.5 year depression and I am looking forward to starting to write some more again. These past 18 months have been a roller coaster of emotions and has been pure hell for the people who care about me as I have been so silent and withdrawn. I hope it’s not too late to start picking up the pieces and move forward to a more positive future.

 

oh snap !

I normally never really listen to the lyrics of a song … but this one just made me crack up laughing and has been stuck in my head . I know it’s a stupid song … but dang ! Hahahaha

The List … in progress

In no particular order .. oh … and it’s still in progress … I couldn’t think of 101 things at once …

* crossed out = finished

* in bold = in progress

1. stay off FB for a month
2. don’t drink for a month
3. eat sugar + sodium free for a month
4. go heliboarding
5. visit all the States in the US
6. start a new company
7. finish reading :  The Power of Now by Eckhard Tolle
8. go to back to school / study something
9. live on a mountain
10. go to a swing club [just to check it out]
11. enter a bikini competition
12. cut my hair short [ chin lenght ]
13. take dance classes
14. pay off all credit cards
15. learn how to drive/ get my license
16. buy my first car
17. volunteer for at least two full weeks
18. visit and stay with 4 friends in different cities in the US
19. re-vamp my old project TalentGuide.com
20. learn how to meditate
21. learn/ get really good at downhill biking
22. go to Las Vegas with my girlfriends, wear a wig and call myself Lola
23. go to Coachella
24. have ‘sprinkle’ pics taken
25. learn how to kiteboard at a kiteboard camp
26. visit 4 different national parks
27. go horseback riding
28. hitch hike
29. wait outside of jail for one of my best friends the day that he gets released … to pick him up and drive him home.
30. take cooking classes
31. learn how to sow / get a sewing machine
32. get boobies
33. help a stranger
34. carry someone’s groceries
35. learn how to pole dance
36. don’t make my bed for a week [ for those who know me ... know that this is gonna be real hard ]
37. live off $15 / day for a week [ this includes subway $$ ]
38. don’t go to CVS/ Walgreens/ Duane Reade or any shop like that for a month
39. go see the Lion King again
40. train for the NYC Marathon and finish it under 3 hours and 40 minutes
41. go to Pittsburgh to see the Pens play
42. hustle my way into a big seminar/ conference
43. go to WMC in Miami
44. save at least X amount [how much is none of your business ] a month for the next 3 years
45. go out and come home when the sun’s coming up/ has come up
46. go camping
47. learn how to ride a motorcycle
48. get married
49. learn how to trade stocks
50. get educated / watch more porn / be more open minded
51. stop snoring [ ha ]
52. answer my phone

Goodbye 2010 Hello 2011

Happy New Years !

I got inspired by my [cyber] friend Chad Williams. His friend started a project called 101 in 1001 . Basically you complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days. Here’s his list : http://www.thechadwilliams.com/101-in-1001

I am going to create a list goals as well. Some will be fun and easy, some will be painful and most will be hard, as I always chose to do stuff that I regret later …

Lets see what happens !

Great Dutch Ad / Commercial

Super Funny video … watch it all the way ! Hilarious !

I miss you

Things happen. sometimes good, other times bad.

One wrong decision can have such a major impact on your life … and have a ripple effect on other people’s life.

What do you do? When do you give up? How do you fix things ?

It’s all about choosing to make better decisions, to take a different approach to situations than before, to respect yourself, to respect others .

I am trying hard every day to be better, to do what’s right, but God it’s hard and circumstances can make it so easy to slip back, but I am fighting hard …

Life is one big challenge …

ABSINTHE in NYC

Saturday September 18 2010

ABSINTHE – FlipsSide

@ Cantor Film Center in NYC

Nicolas Muller and Bjorn Leines are coming by and hang out for bit for the movie and @ the after party in conjunction with Red Bull .

The tickets are $10 and will benefit my fav. cause : STOKED and can be purchased at Blades NYC and Homage Brooklyn … and of course at the door.

Whoohoo … season’s kicking off !